You are not given anything you can't handle....

I am sitting here this morning pondering about the last 3 years of my life and feeling emotional. Three years because that is how long I have been fighting and dealing with cancer. It has been one hell of a ride with surgeries, treatments, separating from my husband and moving. Someone said to me the other day that you are not given anything you can't handle and that you are supposed to learn something from the experience. Well, I'm handling and kicking this horrible disease's ass! What am I supposed to learn..... That my body can handle a lot of poison? That I have some amazing friends and family? Humor is medicine? That Frankie the T-Rex is really a god? I actually think that maybe it is that I am supposed to show Bailey how too be a Survivor. That no matter what you have to keep on fighting. You determine your self worth. That there is nothing stronger than love from your friends and family. Every time I deal with one the many things associated with cancer I think too myself...you can do this, you have too do this....Bailey.

I am on my way for another scan this morning and tomorrow I visit my Radiologist. Then we will find out how many rounds of radiation I will receive. I am feeling extremely positive about things and  that radiation is the best news I could of gotten last week. Funny isn't it...radiation is the best news? My glass is 3/4 full.... Roar!

Cancer chick :)

Prayer Shawls & 20 Minutes

Reporting live from the infusion center....

I have 20 minutes left of poison being deposited into my body. Then I get to go home.... What will I do? Well it seems that I have been given something too do. A Prayer shawl. Some very generous ladies at a local church make prayer shawls for us cancer/chemo patients. Most of you know that I am not a religious person. Except now I have been given this and I feel like it would be a bad omen not to wear it. So my plan is that when I get home I will put on the prayer shawl, sit by my Buddha and do some serious praying. I'm sure I do not need to tell any of you what prayer I want answered the most. I will try/do anything to get my life back from this disease .

20 minutes...... yipee, yahoo and a woot woot!  The plan is that in a few weeks I will get scanned and then get the results a few days later. The thought is that these aliens have been shrunk enough by chemo that I will start a series of 10 radiation treatments. So this last 20 minutes is very significant.... I might never have to do this shit (word was used to emphasize how much I hate chemo) again. My glass is 3/4 full....

Cancer Chick <3